This week marks a major milestone in littlegem’s pregnancy, it is the first week in quite a while that she hasn’t been sick.
We have been fully prepared for the notion that her pregnancy will have an effect on our lifestyle. Although most of what we have thought about perhaps focuses more on a romanticised fantasy of a submissive bred by her Dominant, growing it in her belly for me. This definitely brought our relationship closer during conception.
But the reality of such a big change cannot be ignored. At 18 weeks she is showing a nice cute bump and carries on life best she can without letting on how nauseous she has been or how her back is starting to plague her as well as the other worries that come with growing a lifeform.
From the outside I like to think I have tried my best to help, taking some of the everyday load away when I can, being emotionally support. However ultimately there isn’t a huge amount I can do to ‘fix’ the problems. As a Dom and care giver she is my responsibility to look after and that duty can feel futile when her body doesn’t allow her to feel sexy or even just comfortable at times.
We made a promise to do this pregnancy different. During the previous 2 times, before our D/s relationship, the pregnancy was also hard. Same feelings of sickness, same body issues, same impact on our relationship that perhaps can make us feel less close than we would like. She is tired so needs more sleep and uses a special pillow that wraps around her that prohibits cuddles, that can feel like a barrier to intimacy.
Obviously as the partner there are elements I can’t control, she is going to feel like this occasionally, it’s part of the course. There are still controls that I have that can have an impact however.
A look back in our photo library shows that we did not take a lot of photos the previous 2 times, this wasn’t through lack of want. Personality I find pregnant women very beautiful and littlegem especially so with the emotional attachment of our combined offspring inside. However she did not feel so positive about it. We therefore only have a few photos, it was decided that this time an effort would be made to create pictures to preserve the memory of what is happening right now. I always wanted a collection of erotic pregnancy photos and it has really got me thinking about how to capture her beauty.
Already we have been out a couple of times and have other plans in place. This is what excites me and is what I think about as the bump gets ever bigger. This does become a bonding experience for us both, much like it is under usual circumstances. It’s very much a time I don’t want to feel like I’m wasting, however I need to be realistic, especially in regards to the capabilities of a partner that is expecting. I can’t drag her around the countryside looking for all the places I might want to take her.
It is important for us both to maintain an intimate relationship. Being understanding about her needs means that we can continue to have sex in a way that works for her. A few times we have shared a bath, with the water helping to relieve her joints so that we may have sex side by side. Although this option is becoming ever increasingly more difficult in regards to space and other options will have to be explored.
Positions have become trickier. My personal favourite, having her on her front prone with me on top from behind, will have to wait for a while. Missionary also isn’t happening, so therefore various forms of doggy style, that don’t put too much pressure on her wrists, is the way to go. It does allow me to control her pleasure still with hands free to touch.
Pregnant and Sexy
Littlegem is sexy, her being pregnant only makes that more intense. Over the coming months it is my duty to make this process as comfortable as possible. It is important not just to see the benefits and manage the issues that I can control. Yes there are frustrations from not feeling like we are getting the most out of it at times, spending time cuddling rather than playing. Focusing on what is best for her is the way to go. Making her feel sexy is also a part of my duty and I intend to do my best to nurture those feelings that getting bigger is sexier.