This is the final part of a week long diary, covering real life events and thoughts over 7 days. To start from the beginning click here.
Waking up in our own time on a Sunday morning, littlegem asks me if I slept well. “Yes” I say, “I think I had a sexy dream.”
Littlegem grins as she always likes to hear if I’ve had a sexy dream, they aren’t nearly as often as I hope, more often than not I have forgotten it all by the time I am awake.
I go on to explain that the sexy dream doesn’t just involve gem, there were other people as well. This intrigues gem and she presses me for more information. This talk goes on from the dream world to me telling her the fantasies I have had involving other people, how she is made to watch whilst someone else pleasures me, or that she is made to take 2 cocks at once. These things in particular haven’t happened, yet.
This talk leads to us having sex, while continuing to discuss our naughty fantasies openly. Would it ever happen in real life? I don’t know but the fun is the fact that we are able to talk about it in a way that turns us both on. Littlegem is pleasured at the same time and it is fun to see how the words mixed with the physical pleasure effects her body. Having let her cum yesterday, this day she is going to have to wait so she is simply edged so that I can feel her muscles pulse as she gets close. I really get a sense of power when I feel that I can control how close she gets to orgasm, not quite taking her there so that she becomes desperate.
We have talked before about her being a sexual plaything for me. It takes a lot for her to let go in order for this to work, and I appreciate her allowing me to try. It’s a lot for somebody to give that kind of trust to someone else. With that control comes a lot of responsibility and I don’t want to take for granted the position she has given me. In recent times we have used a blindfold to take away some of that control she may feel she has in those situations.
The rest of the day is time with the children. It is mostly spent at home doing fun games and general family activities. We do go out for a walk together which is nice. It allows us to relax and talk about things are that aren’t important, just keeping it light and fun.
Later on that evening, after the children are in bed we turn our computers on and join the online chat on the SafeworD/s Club. We’ve been members for a couple of years now and it has been an essential part of our development into a D/s lifestyle. Being able to talk to others with similar interests is a great way to learn new things as well as make friends. It can also be nice to just chat to people whilst lounging on the sofa in your dressing gown.
After the formal chat I run a bath for myself. I had expected littlegem to join me as she tells me she’s almost done talking to someone. However she never appears, and by the time I’ve run the bath, got in, washed, got out, dried, brushed my teeth, put my dressing gown on and gone back downstairs again she is sit messaging.
I’m not upset with her, far from it. Its important for me that she talks openly about her feelings to other people, people she trusts. So while I had other ideas in mind, getting her warmed up in the bath and then playing with the Electrastim, I feel comfortable that she is happy being able to message. I think she has found it hard to open up about her feelings so I am eager to allow her the time to do it. Not all feelings can be discussed with me, especially if she is looking for a different perspective. Having friends that are able to pick you up or guide you are invaluable as the D/s journey is not an easy one. It is a lot of work, but rewarding when all the pieces are put together.
That night littlegem gets onto the bed, waiting for me. I undress her and put on the ankle cuff she wears at night, as I do every night (so long as I remember) and tell her she can get into bed. We cuddle and fall asleep tonight, ready for another week of D/s fun.
We did play with the ElectraStim after this evening, lying her in the bed comfortably and placing the pads on her bottom. Later we continued by having sex with the pads still attached to her which creates an interesting experienced, one for another time.