Sunday morning is the only morning that we don’t need to get up early. Littlegem is nestled into my shoulder and purring away. My hand has navigated its way over the curve of her hip and in between her legs. My finger is gently circling her clit and we are both enjoying the feeling of intimacy in this warm bed. We could be in this moment forever. I enjoy the gasps and deep breathes she takes as I bring her close to the edge, before withdrawing to a slower pace. As I do so she grinds her hips, rubbing herself against my fingers wanting more.
She wants me to get on top of her, to really take control and fill her desires. But I don’t, because I know what is about to happen. Soon enough it does.
Our daughter bursts through the door, “it’s morning Mummy and Daddy!”
Our ‘cuddle plus’ comes crashing to an end. Having a baby monitor on next to our bed means that your brain never really switches off. In fact it’s come to a point that when the children are being looked after and there is no monitor it feels weird in the absolute silence.
Knowing that a child can walk in on mummy and daddy does affect our sexual relationship. This will only become more difficult as they grow and we have had to adapt. They are becoming more aware and I don’t want their first memories to be something it shouldn’t be.
To that end the chain that bonds littlegem to the bed at night has gone. In its place is just the thick leather cuff around her ankle, the bondage becoming verbal as she still needs to ask permission to leave the bed and we still have the ritual of her asking “who’s are you?” before being released in the morning.
Adapting to Change
It’s important to adapt to change, to accept that it will happen. The afternoon nap times that the children used to have are gone, therefore we need to make better use of the time we have. For now we still have the evening times for play.
Acknowledging that more of our photography will happen in the evening we bought some new lights for our living room. The most powerful colour neutral lights we could find. It’s amazing how much difference it makes. We call these lights our ‘porn lights’ as we hope to make more videos for the littlegem fan club as well.
Recently we did some wax play and experimented with the effects we could make. It was a fun evening, with music and relaxation. I just hope we’re making the most of it now. I don’t think it’d be easy to explain if a child was to run downstairs during the night and see us, as the clean up is hardly quick.