Last week we were fortunate enough to have our Sinful Sunday photo included in the round-up. This was the first time that’s happened and it couldn’t have come at a better time. Of course we only do these things for fun, but we’d had a sucky day. Seeing our picture had been picked was very special, it certainly brightened our day.
I looked at the photo again. Something seemed familiar about it, then I remembered. In our post reflection there is a photo of gem naked on the bed. The post was a few months ago but the picture is from 2015 and before we had children. Littlegem discusses the issues she has with the way she sees herself. At this point she was only happy showing that picture of her breasts. All photos we took had her covered in some way.
‘PS is slowly helping me see myself the way he sees me. So, I may not look like this anymore, my breasts may be saggier, my nipples larger and my stomach full of stretch marks but that doesn’t change anything, I’m going to say it, I am sexy.
One day, when I have the courage, I will take a photo in this position of the me I am now. But I am not ready, not yet’
I’ve put the photos together, 2015 on top, last week underneath and to me it shows two things. Firstly gem’s body is sexy and beautiful and I will never stop saying that, not because I have to but because I want to. Frankly I don’t see much difference.
Secondly, without knowing it gem’s confidence has grown. She has allowed pictures of her to be taken and published for all to see. Before she would be happy to take photos, but only for my eyes. Now she is more comfortable, not only having her picture taken but having confidence to share online.
So it is extra special that the picture we took last week was chosen and shared with so many others, because it shows how far we’ve come in only a few months.
When I first showed these two pictures together the first thing gem said was “I’m wearing a pearl necklace in both these photos”, I had to laugh.