I’m unsure about posting this picture, even as writing this I’m not terribly certain anyone else apart from PurpleSole will ever read it. Butterfly’s have definitely invaded my stomach. I don’t have a very good relationship with my nipples. I just don’t like how they look. I have posted pictures with my nipples in them but always made sure they were obscured somehow. I don’t think this black and white filter is really masking anything.
So I’ve watched a lot of female dominated porn over the years and have had my fair sightings of breasts. A little part of me casting a critical eye on all the nipples and then comparing them to my own afterwards. Always ending with me feeling bad, judging my own. They are just quite large. The areola is the part I have most uncomfortable feeling about, it takes up most of the view. I think this photo makes me feel slightly better as it’s from the side, slightly hiding the full impact I suppose.
My breasts have changed a lot over the years, with pregnancy and breastfeeding having the most effect. PS wanted desperately to take nude photos of me every trimester but I couldn’t do it. A documentation of my breasts getting more cumbersome and my nipples expanding and darkening. No thank you. Now I have the other end to contend with, I’m nearing the end of breastfeeding my youngest, I plan to stop when she’s a year old. My breast are deflating slightly, but of course my nipples aren’t about to shrink. They will stay prominent and ever encroaching on my vision.
I liked taking this photo, well, being the model for PS to shoot. He snapped it whilst we were away last weekend. I was in the shower, nice and warm from the glow of our fun time, water cascading down my breast. I felt good and I felt sexy. I actually don’t mind this photo. As I said I think the side shot helps, my areola is more forwards based so not as much in shot. My nipples not erect. It’s the best possible situation…
PS has worked to push my limits, exposing that bit more of me and in the process taking a bit more control. I write in my post Reflection about taking an up to date photo in that position, I think this is paving the way for my confidence to be there.