Well, this photo is really a rewind.
This was taken 3 years ago, before D/s, before having my children. PurpleSole had always wanted to take boudoir photos of me and I resisted, I didn’t feel comfortable, disliked my body. I finally agreed and this was the result (this was PS’s favourite photo and the one he had asked me to post…. A few weeks ago). About a month after taking this photo I fell pregnant with my first child and my body completely changed.
When I stop and really look at this photo, remember how I felt then. I can’t belive I didn’t think I was sexy, but I was. Compared to now what on earth was I so worried about. But you believe what you have been told for so many years, it’s drilled in and hard to erase.
My body has achieved so much since. I have grown and birthed two beautiful babies, nurtured them with my breast.
PS is slowly helping me see myself the way he sees me. So, I may not look like this anymore, my breasts may be saggier, my nipples larger and my stomach full of stretch marks but that doesn’t change anything, I’m going to say it, I am sexy.
One day, when I have the courage, I will take a photo in this position of the me I am now. But I am not ready, not yet.